Look for God's Rainbow

2007-05-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

its been ages
i know. i always start with this, right. that i haven blogged in a million years. hhahha. must be many million years already. oh man where should i start. this sem was terrible. TOns of projects, assignments and term papers. first sem i survived on red bull and 2 hrs of sleep per night for 3 weeks. will never forget it man. plus exams were eye-openers. FOR 3 years i've been in NUS i have NOT sat for exams tt made me feel like that. okay. i should stop.i promised myself i will not complain abt the exams ever again. hahaha.

anyway i shall give a run down of the sem's events..with some pics!! this is the last sem of 3rd year! and everyone is graduating!! left a few of us. so sad. it wont be the same without the extended nus gang... and i having problems getting a hons project, something tt i will be interested in. i think cutting up and catching crustaceans and spiders isnt really my cup of tea. how. i feel like i not v cut out for hons lei. i sort of bluffed my way thru these 3 years of nus, dunno what i learn lei? haha. and then now i feel like i trying to fit into hons, where those ppl have been involved in research ever since they started studying in nus, and those ppl with super high CAP and super smart tt type.HOW.. bah.

well.. many things to do this holidays:
1) Teen edge camp (18th -20th june)- sherm is away in the states and i have lots to do and plan every week!
2) Church camp (8th- 11th june)- malacca
3) bulletin and announcements everyweek
4) TEENS tee shirt
5) Driving! starting 21st may- YEAH! 10 lessons booked!
6) CHildren dance- have to chereo 2 dances for lower and upper primary students
7) Year 4 module ( going tioman for 2 weeks! let's hope i dun too badly in this exams and still can do hons!I have God's grace!)
8) RED bull * i need moolah. really broke. stupid MOE give so little money.haha
9) MOE briefings ( BAH!)
10) Jordanites camp
11) Delinquents camp( hahha..going to help those kids at risk)
12) GET A TAN!!! ( i need a work-out!i so fat.BAH!)

OKAY this is it so far. but i think can die already. wheres my holidays! hahah

2007-04-05T07:10:00.000-07:00

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2007-04-05T06:58:00.000-07:00

this visual dna thing is really accurate! ha. its cool.

2007-03-08T08:52:00.000-08:00

this is my girly- shermaine. she looks gorgeous! great time with her preparing for the skit and all. haha.

2007-03-08T08:49:00.000-08:00

i like this pic cos i look thin here.haaa

2007-03-08T08:46:00.000-08:00

the Grand Ballroom at OCC. it was such a fun and successful event tho i was too busy running aroud to really enjoy the food.ha.this pic shows only half the tables!

2007-03-08T08:43:00.000-08:00

eunice and me.. my baby girl i mentored when she was still a little girl! cant believe she's all grown and going to JC already! love her to bits. pretty girl. beware of the guys! ha

2007-03-08T08:41:00.000-08:00

marilyn and i, all ready for our big dance performance at OCC for GTC's 50th anniversary!!

2007-03-08T08:31:00.000-08:00

the track team of tjc in year 02/03/04.. 3 generations here. ha.
and not forgetting Mr Goh. miss running with him.ha.Beautiful ppl.

2007-03-08T08:28:00.000-08:00

we were pretty in pink on valentine's day. it was a great day spent with friends and people who appreciate u. :) happy b day val too! u're 22 years old! ha!my turn next!

2007-03-08T08:04:00.000-08:00

3rd day chinese new year- eugene's place for steamboat and lots of fun and laughter! me is the happy cos got food.hhaa

2007-03-08T07:58:00.000-08:00

Our annual track gathering on the 3rd day of CHinese new year...at GOH GOH's (track coach) house. haha.. me and miaoxin - junior track captain for boys! He always huat at ban luck when i around. hahah

2007-02-11T06:34:00.000-08:00

sherm, me, jessica, deborah, bernice.
my precious girls! :) MWAH!

2007-02-11T06:30:00.000-08:00

TeenEdge SAT! sherm and i are about 6 over years older but we look like them don't u think so!! HAHAH

2007-02-11T06:20:00.000-08:00

Happy BELATED 24th Birthday Daniel Matthew Wong!
Psst... YOu're OLD! HAHAHHA

shan't tell others about ur age. Oops. HAHAH!

My girls from NUS! jia, marie, me and june!

2007-02-11T06:16:00.000-08:00

AHHHH! this cake is damn nice!!! super heavenly. currently my fav cake!!!it's called EBONY. complimentary of tcc! YEAH!

2007-02-11T06:14:00.000-08:00

Birthday boy and our present!! VERY HEAVY lo! HAHA.but v nice bag.
daniel, better take care of the bag hor~

2007-02-11T06:12:00.000-08:00

dinner at essential brew!

2007-02-11T06:09:00.000-08:00

Dan's 24th Birthday. HHAHA.OLD LE. after dinner at essential brew, we went to my brother's tcc outlet and we got free cakes!!! and DANIEL got free membership card from my bro lor. so nice.HHAHA

2007-01-11T16:57:00.000-08:00

i can't believe this. i must be the kuku-est person on earth. do u know where i am now? i am at arts central library at 8 plus in the morning and i thought i was freaking half an hour late for the lecture cos it was raining and the traffic was crawling today...i was rushing, i got down at commonwealth thinking of taking a cab down cos NOBODY strolls into french half an hour late. the lecture is only how big- 30 ppl and the lecturer will sure aim me next time lor. i got down at commonwealth which was always always empty with alot of cabs, i can normally get one in a min. BUT today there was a long line of people and no cabs!!! i made a quick decision to hop onto the first bus i saw at the bus stop which brought me to the next bus stop to take 95. 95 came swiftly but traffic was slow. i reached arts at 830, and ran to as4. i looked into the lect room and discovered it empty. panic. mental note that i will definitely miss class this time. went to central library and to ivle. i went to the same page i went yesterday to check info for french. i missed the last line on the page. lectures start 15th jan. next week!!! i woke up early for nothing. i look like shit and i'm aching everywhere. i really want to bang my head against the wall.

ok after all the complaining, i really need to look at the flipside and thank God for the long line of people so i din waste money taking cab, thank God for a friend who was an angel at 7 plus inthe morning to help me check where my lesson was, thank God for letting me wake up alittle later so i slept a little more. ha.

my next lesson is at 2pm. bah. hoho. i don't feel so bad anymore. buti really want to sleep. ha. God,pls help me to be less blur.

2007-01-10T06:59:00.000-08:00

It's year 2007. i'm just glad year 2006 is over. all the things i really want to say will never be said here. i don't know why i continue to write in this blog anyway. i am considering shutting it down. the things of 2006 have made me a different person. sometimes i wonder who is that girl standing in the mirror. do i really know what i want, or possibly what God wants for me? those decisions that might never come by again, that i have already made, did i really know what i was doing?

the things i've seen and been through. all that hatred and bitterness gnawing my insides. i am numbed by the pain, the pain i will feel if i let it get to me, i have cried till i'm empty, and given till i'm dry. i fear of the day i might not feel a thing anymore. One thing constant in all this craziness is God, and i only live on with his Hope..if not there's nothing worth living for.

the resonating sound of this house
was it called home
or an empty shell
after a weary day
i open the door with a fear
of broken glass and shards
of piercing words of blood and poison
of faded love and darkened wisdom
of shattered dreams,stifled lives
of a resounding echo of death

the life in me halves each time
an angry knife is stabbed right deep within
something pure stained
do you know the love,joy and peace that was robbed from me
was replaced by the hurt, betrayal and hatred
respect by contempt
i want to laugh, not out of how i usually laugh so easily
but because i'm feeling cynical and crazy

i try to look for you on every bus that passes
every room i think 'maybe u're in there'
every corner i turn
but i don't know who i am looking for
i laugh at myself, cos i look so pathetic.
even this post i think twice about posting
cos of the consequences i have to face
people asking questions
the questions you have left me to answer
the impact on people whom i love and lead

hence i will stop here
maybe for good
maybe when i feel like i got something better to say
maybe when i don't have to delete the things i really want to say
maybe when.

I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

E.E. Cummings - I Carry Your Heart With Me
I carry your heart with me,i carry it inMy heart
i am never without it
anywhereI go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
By only me is your doing,my darling
I fear No fate
for you are my fate,my sweet
i want No world
for beautiful you are my world,my true
And it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
And the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
Higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
And this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart
i carry it in my heart

2006-12-26T21:37:00.000-08:00

Shackles Team from Riverz! tt's me in yellow!

2006-12-25T23:15:00.000-08:00

Christmas tree at Grandma's place... very cozy and nice feeling..

2006-12-25T23:14:00.000-08:00

valarie and i at paragon's christmas tree..

2006-12-25T23:13:00.000-08:00

my cousin and i at my cousin's wedding!

2006-12-25T23:12:00.001-08:00

us and our shoes!proud owners!

2006-12-25T23:12:00.000-08:00

my half done shoes..very nice right!! i painted them different colours and sewed on lace and ribbon and put on other trinkets..hoho.

2006-12-25T23:11:00.000-08:00

this are jianning's shoes. she got very lazy and wanted to slack so that's all she came up with..ha.

2006-12-25T23:09:00.000-08:00

my girls and i went to jianning's house to design our sch shoes...this is kaiyin's.. i helped her draw the cow and the bee..ha.

2006-12-25T23:08:00.000-08:00

one of the days last week when my sec sch frens ( my darling girls!) and i met for a movie : open season. ha. its a lame show. but i like cartoons.

2006-12-25T23:07:00.000-08:00

paul and joe organizer!!! free from female magazine! i bought it just for the organizer..heh.

2006-12-25T23:06:00.000-08:00

my loot this Christmas! :)

2006-12-25T21:53:00.000-08:00

It's Christmas again!! my favorite time of the year... but i am always barely making it in time to write my christmas cards, and buy all the presents...this year lots of things are different.. nostalgia sets in at times, of unforgotten memories and the warm fluttery feeling that used to be around..but nonetheless, its Christmas, buying presents and christmas cards are just ways of letting ppl know they are not forgotten and they are appreciated and i don't mind not sleeping and being extra tired just to make someone's day. and each Christmas is special even if things get routine... because the main reason of Christmas is to reflect on God's love and share it to those who do not know God.

every christmas eve it seems to be my ritual that i have to stay up and not sleep and finish the gift wrapping and cards.. this year.. i have an extra batch of 50 teens to do sth for... i rolled up green foam paper with handwritten msgs and tied them with a red bow, and slotted 50 lollipops into the foam roll... i did this till 4 am in the morning and lugged myself to church on sunday..din manage to write finish half of my christmas cards! well all went well.. went shopping for the remaining gifts left-- gifts for dads are so hard to buy!!cos they have everything already and the things they want u cant afford. ha.

was so tired..had dinner with family at this turkish place at east point..the food was really not bad! at night i continued to wrap presents and make some for my friends..

every christmas i celebrate with my sec sch girls..and this year is no different..we met up at valarie's house and i cooked spaghetti for the girls..jianning brought potato salad and valarie who is a total dud at cooking just showed us where the pots and pans were. ahaa. vanessa was really late as usual..so she only showed up when the food was ready. ha. took a lot of photos..i'm yet to receive it from them.. vanessa is leaving for india 3oth dec!! and spending half of 2007 in INdia!! for attachment. i am gonna miss her. so yar.. we talked and talked and played this silly game that val likes-- it's so old school. ha. it's called aeroplane game. ha. it's a very cheapo board game, but quite entertaining la.. den we exchanged gifts.. each of us had sth for all of us...alot of accesories this time..ha. had a bracelet from van, earrings from val and a make up pouch and handmade keychain from jianning.. Kaiyin as usual is somewhere in thailand with the kids in pursuit of her dream t be mother theresa. ha. she missed christmas with us 2 years! i guess its for a greater cause. ha. i got jianning a top, a wallet for vanes, and sesame street undies and a handmade bracelet for valarie. it was fun.. we painted our nails and then i had to go off for my annual family christmas celebration at my ah ma's house.

i brought the movie- the Grinch.. my ritual every christmas. haa. watched The Grinch at my granny's place and eat alot alot of food. it was potluck this year.. and the cold weather outside made everything at home seem alot warmer. we exchanged presents!! i had a hard time getting my aunties, uncles, dad, mum, brothers and sister in law presents.. but i hope they all were happy.. i was really low on money.. squeezing out every last drop le. haa my uncle and family got my a really pretty swatch watch and my aunties got my a necklace with a very unique pendant from sk jewellery. (i like!!)

Teens Christmas last week went really super well..and i'm so proud of each teen that participated and those who brought their frens..it's great looking at little young hearts just wanting to know God and do their best for Him!

this year is coming to a close.. and i have to say that this year was really a very challenging one.. the kind of things that have happened. and i think the last half of the year kinda changed my life abit. i dunno.. i know there's sth in me that died, i guess. i just don't feel the same anymore. like there is no more love left to give. like an empty hollow shell. like a shrivelling leaf that has fallen off the tree. I just hope to find whatever i have lost. ppl not only say i've grown fatter. that one hurts me a little, but that's just cos i know i am really fatter cos i eat alot. that's my fault and i can't deny that.. haha.
but something that struck me was ppl said i looked alot sadder. last time i remember ppl characterized me as someone who was always smiling always joyful and always making other happy as well. all they saw was my smile. and i was happy that it was that way. that i could make ppl happy and i could really be so joyful even when deep inside i was really in shambles.
this period of time, ppl started to comment and tell others that i looked sad. my frens start to say behind that smile, they saw sadness. ppl close to me start to say that the glow in my eye has disappeared and become replaced with deep sorrow. when i knew that this christmas, i start to cry. i don't want to be that person that ppl see me now as. i lived to make ppl happy. now it seems like i don't know who i am, why i have let that sorrow show.

I pray God that You will give me joy this christmas. please help me know who I am in You. bring me back to the joy you gave me, heal those scars and stop the bleeding of sadness..restore me. restore my life, and my home.

okay i'm sorry to all for going onto such a dim subject at christmas..well.. to all my NUS frens, see ya all 28th for death note 2!thanks gladys and eugene for inviting us all to ur church concert that day!u danced great, gladys!and for the present, marie and gladys and eugene!!!to ALL..
Blessed Christmas! God loves you! and I do too!

2006-12-11T22:08:00.000-08:00

oh ya. My exams are over!! haha.
yup. but i haven had rest since it ended. right after exam, marie, jia and i went to sim lim to get gladys' present- camera!! haha. she loved it. and then we went bugis to walk and shop, then we were so pooped...(old already sia.. no stamina to shop) then i went back to church for dance prac... dance prac everyday.. and saturday End of Year Concert (EOYC) went great. I love the dance SHACKLES, the song is so nice, and groovy, and the meaning of breaking off all strongholds and everything holding you down from the purpose you have in Christ, is so significant. It went super well. i din screw up!!! whhaha. yeah.
Thanks marie for coming!! it meant alot to me! :)

wah after the concert, rushed to angela ( my laopo)'s 21st birthday at changi fairy point chalet. she is just so artistic. i din take pictures of the place, (damn!i forgot!and i dun have enough memory in my phone). she decorated the place damn well, very classy, dark, mysterious, but abit occultic feeling.hahha. cos it was black and red theme. but it was great. I think she put alot of effort into the decorating..i was impressed. but i am always impressed at her arty-farty skills.

i am gonna be so busy this few weeks. christmas is no doubt my most favourite season, but it's also the busiest. Teens Christmas is gonna be a blast.. expecting alot of teens!! yeah!! k to all frens having holidays..have fun!!

2006-12-11T22:05:00.000-08:00

wedding at marina mandarin... me and my da sao with a nice christmas tree.. great wedding dinner. ate alot.ha. and i had 2 bowls of sharks fin, 2 abalones and extra share of food, cos 3 ppl were missin from my table!!! HAHHAHA.

2006-12-11T22:03:00.000-08:00

haha.i like this picture.

2006-12-11T22:01:00.000-08:00

me and wileen before EOYC- end of year concert..my bimbo sista. other photos not sent to me yet. it was an explosive concert. Shackles went perfectly executed! Praise God! thanks marie, vanes and jianning for coming!

2006-12-11T21:58:00.000-08:00

marie and i at gladys' 21st cum graduation cum farewell. candies and sweets was the theme, so we came as stripey candy canes. ha.

2006-12-11T21:35:00.000-08:00

OTHNIEL

It's been 11 years. You'll be 16 this year. Sometimes I sit on the bus, thinking about you, thinking how life would be different without you, thinking how your presence would have made things better. Sometimes i sit in the silence, thinking of how smart you were, and how cute you were, how you loved Bon Jovi's Always, how you would sing out loud and jump on the bed. Thinking how you had so much faith, how you were fearless in the face of death, how you prayed, how you taught us to pray and believe when you were only five. You knew you were different, with your yellow eyes and unnaturally large stomach, a yellow tinge in your skin, but you stood through it all, countless times the needle passed through your skin, operations, and pain. I would think about how I should have spent all my time with you and love you and buy everything you want before your time with me ended. I think about if you were 16 this year, i would have to fend off all the girls who would be interested in you. If you were alive, you would be with me in youth ministry, and you would have a great voice, you would be a leader, you would lead worship, and you would inspire others with experiences beyond your years. You fuel me with your energy you left behind and gave me every inspiration to make me write the essays that won prizes, and run the races that were gruelling and tough but gave lightness to my every step.

Don't let me forget you, even when my skin starts to degenerate and wrinkles start to appear. Don't let me forget your strength in fragility, the strong grip of your tiny hand, the loud voice from your tiny frame. I will not forget you even if age catches up with me, even if my memory starts to fail and my vision starts to fade. I will not forget that you said," pray, pray." I will not forget that you fought every battle thrown at you.

I miss you my little brother. I will see you in heaven.

2006-12-01T18:20:00.000-08:00

I can't wait till exams are over!! i've got so many things lined up, i'm just getting excited thinking about it. BAH. left eco and animal physio exam. i really no steam liao. somemore over this weekend i dun think got time to study then monday is exam le. WOOPS. and then ecology is like,cannot make it. half the module the notes i have not laid my eyes on b4.

lalala. it's CHristmas! my fav time of the year. i can't believe it's here again tho. time passes crazily fast. and i dun wanna think of my aging process as well.bah.. i am dreaming of a warm christmas in the cold rainy weather, just listening to lovely jazz christmas songs that really light up the house, warm the heart and just wanna sit back and enjoy a mug of hot chocloate with marshmallows... awww. i love christmas. but i spend the most at this time of the year too. damn. *sobs at the depleting money in account*

so many stuff been happening, sometimes i just wish life could be normal for abit. but yet i dun wan it to be normal normal boring. but i want it to happily exciting. ha. confusing?bah.
yeah quite excited abt END of year concert on the 9thdec! right after exams gonna launch into non stop dance practices for SHACKLES, nice dance. dun wanna screw it up. ha. those who read this,u're invited! BE THERE!!

yay!

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struggling

2006-11-12T17:50:00.000-08:00

13th november 2006

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY COLIN!
may God bless you in abundance, may u abide in Him and follow the purposes He has for your life.

2006-11-12T17:34:00.000-08:00

He Knows My Name by Tommy Walker

I have a Maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in His hands

Chorus:
He Knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and He hears me when I call

I have a Father
He calls me His own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go

This was the song that ministered to me on Sunday. To know the Most High God loves me no matter what i do, no matter how i've disappointed Him, to know that He humbled himself to die on the cross cos He loved me. He was despised, rejected and tortured by the people He loved, by people His very hands had created. To know that even if the world only had me, He would still die for me.

I am very very very jaded. by whatever i've been thru. especially this semester. The issues in my heart surface from time to time, and I'm broken. But to know that God is there for me, God collects every tear that rolls off my cheeks, He loves me and never thinks badly of me. But intercedes for me. My own flesh and Satan's temptations and snares may get the better of me at times, but God keeps me under His wings. He holds my hand. i want to love Him in all the capacity I have in return. It's a struggle. But I will do what You have called me to. To be that precious stone, refined and purified through fire.

And He said to me:" My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2Corinthians 12:9

Let me serve You out of brokenness.

12th nov 2006
Happy 21st Birthday Nicky!
May the joy of the Lord be your strength! smile and spread the joy within u! "For those who wait upon the Lord will renew their strength, they will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not be weary, they will walk and not be faint."
May this verse encourage u in the army! JIA YOU!

2006-11-05T17:38:00.000-08:00

My prayer adapted from Philippians 1:9-11

And this is my prayer: that my love may abound more and more in the knowledge of God and depth of insight, so that I may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ- to the glory and praise of God.

In the quiet , In the stillness
I know that you are God
In the secret, In your presence
I know I am restored

In the chaos , in confusion
I know you're sovereign still
In the moments of my weakness
You give me grace to do your will

Thank you God. I will give up my life to serve You. For You first loved me.

To men who might have thought they had me under oppression, you are very wrong. I will never let any more men walk over me and think they are all- mighty and controlling just because your anatomy states you're a man. I will give all respect to one who knows how much God loves women as well, and to one who knows his strength as a man and uses it well. I understand the differences between men and women and how God has created us to be. I am not advocating equality among the gender. I am taking a stand for who men should be, as God has created them to be. And likewise, for women. Men and women who will stand up for Him in the generation. People who know Him for who He is, people who know who they are in Him. "so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe."( phil 2:15)

2006-10-26T22:43:00.000-07:00

footprints

2006-10-26T22:38:00.000-07:00

Footprints in the sand

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path ofhis life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you.During your times of trial and suffering,when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

2006-10-22T18:54:00.000-07:00

all these teens.one word for them: passion. wan to see all of them growing up to love God and lead our generation on! AMEN!

2006-10-22T18:53:00.000-07:00

the boys struggling to keep their balance on the chairs!

2006-10-22T18:50:00.000-07:00

hey marie.love this pic we took at meiting's birthday.in THAT ROOM! ha.stay strong babe, glad to have been there for u.here for u anytime!

2006-10-22T18:35:00.000-07:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY

beware the barren-ness of a busy life. this is one phrase tt is beginning to hit me right now. I am so busy, i have hardly any time to breathe, plus the haze is choking me up. its a monday and i am so grateful when i saw the email that no need to hand up FST report that was supposed to be due today.deadline change to fri.i was so tired that i was falling asleep typing lor.so actually i have french and FST lesson today but i feel like staying home to do finish the report first cos i not even half-way thru. can u imagine. A freaking 10 pages on SATS and HACCP, wad a waste of time. man. but still have to do la. so no pt complaining. soooo...ya. i have half an hour more to decide whether i am going to get ready to go sch. my mind is already half- made up. ha.

got eco report due on friday also. tt one i think also another killer. i think more killer than this 10 pages one. shoot.and then going malaysia for a field trip the whole day on sat, can foresee its going to be a very long and tiring day again.monday a big big big test for animal physio and i haven touched a thing! i am so screwed.

Need God's touch of renewal, strength to carry on, optimism to look ahead, knowing his plans for me are the best, need a divine exchange of my burdens for his yolk that is light.

at this point, my brother's composed song comes back to me:
I'm safe in your arms, Jesus, safe in Your arms
I fear no harm, Jesus, here in Your arms
Cos nothing can move me
The mountains crumble at Your feet
I'm safe in Your arms, Jesus
Safe in Your arms

Change me, Jesus.

2006-10-22T18:34:00.000-07:00

family day at pasir ris park this sat.doin so many things tt day. was in committee, so after putting up the stage decor, was in the opening dance to do hawaiian dance and all. so pai say.had to wear hula skirt.b4 i forget, ky and i made 2 hula skirts, each taking 4 hours to make. can die!but it looked great in the end.ohyar u can guess from this photo that i was in charge of the face painting station too.HAHHA.

2006-10-22T18:31:00.000-07:00

so nice. i love it. haaha.and at family day they used it as props for family portrait, very funny,like go hawaii like tt. but at the end of the day, some kid broke the side of the wave. my heart literally broke.

2006-10-22T18:29:00.000-07:00

i am v v proud of my work. it took all together about 7 hours to complete this 2 works of art. BAH.so tired. very nice hor! say nice!!!

2006-10-22T18:27:00.000-07:00

okay what i have been so busy with this past week: family day. supposed to do stage decor and programs.this looks small but the styrofoam is door-sized.i drew the waves and my da sao and me painted them. Thanks to colin for driving and transporting the boards!

2006-10-22T18:25:00.000-07:00

ok those with weak stomachs, pls do not see the following 4 pics. this was the intact frog in my last animal physio lab work.its brain dead. we were supposed to cut the belly skin, but we decided to do an autopsy in the end.even cut up the stomach to see what it ate.hoho.we are the evil.

2006-10-22T18:23:00.000-07:00

frog with its organs pouring out. got air sac, intestines, stomach, liver, pancreas, kidney...

2006-10-22T18:21:00.001-07:00

frog with belly skin taken out

2006-10-22T18:21:00.000-07:00

mutilated frog with all organs taken out and displayed. and heart still beating in the dish.

2006-10-22T18:19:00.000-07:00

okay.random shot one saturday at youth ministry.Pastor whit is acting like none of this is happenin, and alex is traumatized by everyone who wants to poke him ( esp me), he damn scared of poke,will jump one.HA!

2006-10-22T18:18:00.000-07:00

random shot of really big in full bloom roses taken in the animal physio lab. some expt on roses for plant physio mod. hoho. sucker for big succulent roses.

2006-10-22T18:17:00.000-07:00

was feeling real tired and sleepy le. that week was not exactly going well for me. ha. but yup my girls made it all better.

2006-10-22T18:16:00.000-07:00

pasir ris park with coffee liquer and wineglasses and a big mat! girls' nite out.

2006-10-22T18:14:00.001-07:00

our special guests: zhaoxian n bren!

2006-10-22T18:14:00.000-07:00

Vanes' birthday. 3rd oct. a nite out late at holland v and then pasir ris park and then my place till 5.30 am. we went to school like zombies. HA. most of all we played ALOT of citadel. FUN GAME!

2006-10-16T07:42:00.000-07:00

To all men: a challenge to all men to treat a woman right.

Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the Hand above?
A woman's heart, and a woman's life-
And a woman's wonderful love.

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy.

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.
You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart be true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts-
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say," It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to won that way.

2006-10-03T02:08:00.000-07:00

just want to shout out:

HAPPY HAPPILY HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAHUI!

and HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY 21st VANESSA!

love u girls!

2006-10-03T02:07:00.000-07:00

princess marie! happy 21st!

2006-10-03T02:06:00.000-07:00

loving shot. muacks-love u girls.

2006-10-03T02:03:00.000-07:00

u would think it was easter.ha.

2006-10-03T02:01:00.000-07:00

and the song "drop it like its hot" was playing, the cream fell onto eugene's foot.hahaa.

2006-10-03T02:00:00.000-07:00

i like this one. haha

2006-10-03T01:59:00.000-07:00

NUS peeps. cute pic. haha.the moustaches are fake.. actually got v disgusting pics that we girls took with the moustaches. ha.but dun put up la, wait scare u all.hhaha

2006-10-03T01:57:00.000-07:00

pretty birthday girl!! marie i love u!

2006-10-03T01:56:00.000-07:00

me and the birthday girls- we are real bunnies- complete with the teeth.ha

2006-10-03T01:55:00.000-07:00

marie's birthday- we are totally las vegas!

2006-10-03T01:54:00.000-07:00

eugene just took out his 3 wisdom teeth and cos of the swelling,he look like MR potato!!! HAHAHA!

2006-10-02T00:18:00.000-07:00

i don't know y i have this blog anyway when i can't really type what i want to say here.

mid sem break. i dunnow what the hell i taking a break from, but yar it was slacking and partying all the way. monday was spent slacking, tues - buying marie's present and accompanying her to get her birthday suit.ha :) wed- went down to church to get my bro's wedding decor so can use at marie's chalet, and went with alot of barang to my da-sao's old place to get the big dish for a centre piece of the table in marie's chalet. I spent the whole day travelling and carrying loads of stuff. got extra muscle liao. hhaa. at night went to marie's chalet stay over with her and jia and marie's sec sch fren who is also v farnie. we decored the place. i must say its v nice. :) i dun have the pics cos i dun have cam, but yar gonna steal off jia's blog. haha.

marie's las vegas-themed party was great, had everything ranging from da,siao, bun luck, bingo, old maid, happy family, loan sharks, forfeits, fake moustaches, glittery hats, bunny ears, many many gold coins. u get the drift. went with her last week, skipped fri FST lesson( just another 2 hrs of playing hangman only mah!) and embarked on a big shopping spree at arab street and concourse to get all those wacky items and cloth. HA. we drank a gallon of burger king's barley to last us the whole day. it was fun.. got back only at 6am on fri, and slept till 12, then went to meet friends..

so there goes my week. no studying. no catch up. never do any assignment or revision or reading or preparing for my oral test this week. i'm so dead.

never been so down in my life. not even when othniel passed away.

2006-09-26T20:57:00.000-07:00

add to daniel's collection: Punggol nasi lemak!YUMMY!

2006-09-10T18:29:00.000-07:00

Give up, let go
by Big daddy weave ( great band!* worshipleaders out there, listen widely, got nicer songs outside hillsongs and planetshakers!*)

Desperate. Grasping with a clenched fist.
I try to hold my own life in my own hand
Frustration sets in, thought I had this
Failure is the one thing that I can't stand

Oh, You remind me that taking care of me
Was never in my job description.
Oh, now I'm finding You want to fix it all
You're just waiting for permission

I'm giving up, I'm letting go
Of everything that I've held onto
I'm giving up, I'm letting go
Of everything that I've let hold me
Far too long (for so long)
Lord I knowI need to give You full control
Help me give up and let go

I want to trust You with my whole heart
Not lean on what I think I understand
And even when I can't see
Jesus, help me still to believe
You're unveiling an unfailing plan
Oh, but sometimes the old me creeps back in
Oh, and the only thing I know to do is give it all to You again

Help me give up, help me let go
Help me give up, help me let go
Help me give it all to You

2006-09-09T06:18:00.000-07:00

jiahui and i found biscuits with marie's name on it!! ha. new product summore. HAHHA! marie u go there buy maybe got discount sia!!

2006-09-09T06:15:00.000-07:00

my eldest brother's birthday celebration at grandma's house!
he's 27!!ice cream cake. YUMMY!

2006-09-09T06:13:00.000-07:00

me and hildya. she is still as preetty as ever. last time sec sch she is the school flower. all guys will definitely have a crush on her b4. HHAA.

2006-09-09T06:11:00.000-07:00

the rest of the peeps who were there. jiaxuan (SOoo long nv see her)and my girls, van and jn.

2006-09-09T06:10:00.000-07:00

birthday girl!!! happy sweet 21st yvonne!!!

2006-09-09T06:08:00.000-07:00

my sec sch el teacher tt still hangs out with us cos we were his first batch of graduates. He's nice. HA. hope he finds a wifey soon! HA

2006-09-09T06:06:00.000-07:00

it was hilarious. speak to me, but u gotta pay a big price.HA!
for vanes, she gets alot of business, cos ppl get to do whatever they want to her for a min.
HAHHA.like kick her and stuff.HA

2006-09-09T06:05:00.000-07:00

vanes at yvonne's 21st! we found a sign tt said this. van loved it and it was her tagline for the rest of the party.ha.

2006-09-09T05:47:00.000-07:00

stephy made this for me cos she know i like the photo! yea! thank u stephy! MWAH! shu kiat,u also like rite.hahha. see, steph, u got alot of ppl after ur photos.shukiat also grabbed n put on his blog.HA.

2006-09-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

Drop Everything and Run
by andrea hamilton

You just need someone to talk to
Got a couple of issues to work through
But when there are friends who try to confront you
You drop everything and run

I know you look back at the heartache
Trusting seems like a mistake
So when there's someone new
You'll think he'll hurt you
Before it starts you're done
This is what life has taught you to do
you drop everything and run

Sometimes the past is an excuse
Complacency can abuse
Remaining in all the refuse
Just 'cause its where you're from
That's what life taught you to do
You drop everything and run

Can you even imagine a friend who knows you and
knows how to be true
And when he needed to just be with you
would drop everything and run

He's in love and waiting for you
drop everything and run.

2006-09-03T18:28:00.000-07:00

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart
The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn't the ending so much as the start

2006-08-31T08:43:00.000-07:00

marie and i were v bored and went to arts co op to entertain ourselves.
marie says it looks like a starfish.wahhaa.

2006-08-31T08:26:00.000-07:00

me and marie trying to do the perfect impersonation of... U guessed it... PAUL twohill! hahah.DAMN! i look just like him. just minus the eyeliner.hoho.

2006-08-31T07:29:00.000-07:00

things are not the same and will never be the same again.

2006-08-27T23:41:00.000-07:00

FATIGUED

wow. i don't know why i actually feel so tired. last thurs i slept real late like at four plus? HA. and i felt like i just finished the last night of camp when i woke up in the morning. HAHHA. that kind of hangover feeling. I've been a bad bad girl. skipping lessons and being late for them. man. year 3 liao lei. when will i ever learn. ha. (yes yes Jase.u will pray for me that i will learn to be early k.) AH yes. JASON left to canada for SEP on friday. now i think i also v kek sim lei. I WOULD HAVE BEEN ON THAT FLIGHT TOO! haha. not stuck in singapore with a 5 day week and many many lab sessions. SI BEI SIAN. ( si bei is not bad word ok. its hokkien. it means VERY!) hahaha. k lar. at least for the last 2 weeks, i actually cum( cAnNoT use this word liao hor,i know the meaning now! HA), oh no i mean, come all the way to school for just 1 lesson lor. everyday lei. except fri. SO ok i've been a NOT too bad girl. hoho. oh yar i shall elaborate on my v horrendous sch timetable.

mon - 12-2 French lect
3-6 FST lab ( go HSA next week!)

tues- 10-12 ( ONLY LESSON! SIAN rite)

ok, now u must be thinking timetable not so bad wat, why she complaining?

wed- 2-4 French tut
6-8 French lect ( i gonna take up joyce's offer to stay at her hostel so i can wake up for 8am lect on thurs liao.)

Thurs- 8- 10 am Ecology lect ( i have to wake up at 545 am just to get to sch on time)
10-1 Physio prac or tut
2-6 Ecology prac

Fri- 8-10 am Animal physio lect
11-12 FST tut
12-2 FST lect
2-6 Animal physio Prac

the 3 hrs of FST on fri ISH CANNOT MAKE IT!!! on the first lesson, marie and i played hangman for 3 hrs. ahaha. i still remember i cannot guess DAWN OF THE DEAD. and i discovered marie not only can talk non stop, dance non-stop, she also can play hangman very well. HA. ( ah. dun beat me when u see me ok marie. I Lurbch U!hahah - courtesy of hanging out with zhizhi and reading her blog) lurbch means love hor.HOHO.

sat, i spent at youth, morning had muso prac for sunday service. then i was worship leader for youth service that day. It was great. ha. seeing youths on fire for God and wanting to use what they have for Him is just wonderful. To Jereld, Jared, Colin Sim and Tan, Eunice, Xiuhui, Joshua my dear bro, SHARonk, chualy. COntinue to play on, sing on and serve FOR our Almighty.

had mylene's 21st that night at her place. food glorious food. i ate and ate all the yummilicious food and gobbled up 2 slices of her choc cake. indescribably good. hoho. lurve ya girl, join the 21 club le. old old le. HHA. thanks for the invite and for feeding me real well. hope u enjoyed urself!HAPPIE SWEET 21ST!

slept real late on sat to get redy for sunday.couldn't get up on sunday morning. so i took a cab. had to reach by 8 plus cos singing back up. I really love to sing for God so i got to embrace this kinda waking up early thingys... but with the amt i use to take cab every sunday to come early, i think i could have sponsored abt 10 children in Africa. BAH. Sherm was sick (how are u darling!!) on sunday so i had to do Teens by myself with the help of nicky and mylene. It went really great. I love this bunch of 13 to 16 yr olds. they just cant help but capture my heart. i think next week TEENS LAUNCH is gonna be great. woohoo!

oh no. this coming sat got bible study test. its the middle of the 6 week bible study class by jx. better study , wait kena trash by the younger ones, no where to put face liao. HHA.gotta study one. hoho. must set good example. but i dun have all the notes...must go get from jx. haha.

oh yar where was i. so teens on sunday went well and then after 2nd service i went with wayne to get his sister's present and i also had to get her 21st bday pressie.. we went to bugis and we walked our ass off. my feet were really aching. but i gto her a really nice bag. ha i better give it to her soon if not IT'S MINE!! MUAHHAHA.* evil laughter*

when i finally got home, i really felt fatigued. i collapsed onto bed and just fell asleep. i woke up to eat dinner ( my my, i REALLy NEVER miss a meal.) haha and then i went back to sleep at 8 plus. i was THAT tired. i woke up today at 9 like i really had a hangover. hahaha. my eyes were puffy. oh man. hate it.

gotch alot of french hw to do.. BAH.

je suis Singapourienne. Tu connais?
( i am singaporean. do u know?)

je m'appelle Laetitia ( my name is Laetitia) -->yup its really my french name in class. HA.

ah i think i'm real lousy at it. HA.

AU REVOIR!

2006-08-21T07:40:00.000-07:00

jiahui made me do this. Hhhahaaa.

i HAVE DONE 72 OUT OF THIS 99 THINGS!

[1] I have read a book before
[2 ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.(1mile=1.6km?)
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[3] I have been on some sort of sports team.
[4] I have watched cartoons for hours before
[5] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[6] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[7] have been snowboarding/skiing.
[8] I have played ping pong.
[9] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[10] I have seen fireworks.
[ ] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I have almost drowned.
[11] I have been so embarrassed I wanted todisappear.
[12] I have listened to one cd over & over & overagain.
[13] I have had stitch(es).
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[14] I have stayed up til 6am doinghomework/projects.
[15] I currently have a job.[16] I have been ice skating.
[17] I have been rollerblading.
[18] I have fallen flat on my face.
[19] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[20] I have been in a fist fight.
[21] I have played videogames/com for more than 3hours straight.
[22] I have watched The Power Rangers before.
[23] I do / have attended Church regularly.
[24] I have played truth or dare.
[25] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[26] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[27] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[28] I've been in a verbal argument.
[29] I've cried in school.
[30] I've played basketball on a team.
[] I've played softball on a team.
[] I've played football on a team.
[31] I've played soccer on a team.
[32] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've swam on a team.
[33] I've been swimming more than 20 times in mylife.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[34] I've climbed a rock wall before.
[35] I've lost more than $20.
[36] I've called myself an idiot
[37] I've called someone else an idiot
[38] I've cried myself to sleep
[39] I've had (or have) pets.
[40] I've owned a Spice Girls cd. and or tape
[41] I've owned a Britney Spears cd
[42] I've owned an N*Sync cd
[43] I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd
[ ] I've mooned someone ( that means??)
[44] I've sworn at someone in authority
[45] I've been in the schoolnewspaper / insights.
[46] I've been on TV[47] I've eaten sushi.
[48] I've been on the other side of a waterfall
[49] I've watched all of the Lord of the Ringsmovies.
[50] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 Stooges at least once.
[] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[51] I've watched Looney Tunes before.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker
[] I've been called a geek.
[52]I've studied hard for a test and got a badgrade.
[53] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[54] I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist.
[55] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested
[56] I've been attracted to someone much olderthan me
[57] I've been tickled till I've cried
[58] I've tickled someone else until they cried
[59] I've had / have siblings
[] I've been to a rock concert
[60] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it
[61] I've been in a play
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class
[62] I've been picked first in gym class or so
[63] Ive been picked in that middle-range in gymclass.
[64] I've cried in front of my friends
[65] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
[] I've freaked out over a sports game
[] I’ve vomited in public.[]
I've washed someone else’s vomit
[66 ] I’ve ran away
[] I’ve had a stalker
[] I've had a fight with someone on txt
[67] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face
[68]I've been in a car accident
[69] I've forgiven someone who has done somethingbad to me (recently)
[70] I've personally seen someone die
[71] I've been confronted by a police officer butgot away
[72] I've lost someone who meant the world

2006-08-15T06:46:00.000-07:00

photo taken by stephy. i love it. it reminds me of God's hope.

2006-08-15T06:43:00.001-07:00

acting cute.bah. hahaha.

2006-08-15T06:43:00.000-07:00

after planetshakers with the girls :)

2006-08-15T06:41:00.000-07:00

kaiyin's durian cake! happy 21st!

2006-08-15T06:40:00.000-07:00

having supper after planet shakers concert with jessica,deb,bern, ben and elisha

2006-08-15T06:37:00.000-07:00

fireworks taken from marina bay